Is This What They Call A Can-Do Attitude? January 20, 2008

There is a God and right now I must be his favorite child because I was offered the job. 
 
On Wednesday, I had an interview with the HR person. I was made to take a series of timed problem-solving tests and then I met the owner and manager of the small company who interviewed me as well. While I don’t think I did so hot on the tests, in both interviews I conducted myself in a poised, positive, and friendly manner and made a very good impression – the preparation paid off. I was asked to come back the next day for a group interview with the employees.
 
At the group interview, I found myself comfortably fielding questions from six women and asking questions of my own. Considering the circumstances and my long-standing fear of group situations, things went surprisingly well… So well in fact that the manager called me on Friday and extended the offer to hire me. (I’d like to thank Xanax for playing a BIG part in helping me get this job.)
 
So now I don’t just have a job, but the PERMANENT full-time job WITH BENEFITS that I had wanted so bad for so long. Goodbye staffing agencies! Goodbye temporary assignments! Goodbye contracts! Goodbye irregular, late, or bouncing paychecks! Goodbye uncertainty! Goodbye inconvenience! 
 
And as if it weren’t enough blessings for one day, at my new job I won’t just be a mere administrative assistant; I will learn how to do accounting, payroll, and tax work! Since I know nothing about those things, I’ll be starting from stratch, but as time progresses, I will accrue more knowledge, more experience. This position, unlike any other that I would ever have considered applying for, will give me the opportunity to move forward into a more rewarding career than what I had imagined for myself.
 
I think this new year ushers in a time of change, a time to move beyond the self-sabotaging stagnant mediocrity I’ve imposed on myself for so long because I had so little confidence in myself and so little faith in what the future could bring. Taking on this job will be the first step to convincing myself that I can go beyond what I know I’m 100% capable of doing, that I have what it takes to do more challenging tasks than what I’m used to doing, and that I can succeed if I apply my enthusiasm and conscientiousness to my new responsibilities.
 
I’m scared of change. I’m scared of challenge. But I CAN DO THIS. I’ve never done it, but I can do it. I don’t know how to do it yet, but that’s okay because in this job I’m going to learn from the very beginning. I am like a baby who’s about to learn how to walk. After months and months of barely crawling, I’m finally standing up on my two feet. I’m ready to walk. I’m ready to move forward. And maybe one day I’m going to be able to run!