Since I’m over the heavy-duty self-analysis, I am now focusing all of my energies on losing weight. My goal is to lose 15 lbs in the next four months, roughly 1 lb a week, and get back into top physical shape.
I’m just tired of recoiling in disgust at the sight of my body in the mirror. I’ve really let myself go in the last three years. I want to build up my metabolism and lose the excess fat while I’m still in my twenties, before the task becomes even more difficult.
I went to the gym today (yes, I can’t believe I did it!) and did 20 minutes on the elliptical trainer and 25 minutes of straight jogging on the treadmill. I was shocked that I was able to sustain the jogging for 25 minutes nonstop. I’m so lazy and unfit. It’s mind-boggling that I could jog for so long without dropping dead. But I did it and I am going to do it again on Monday. My goal is to slowly build up my exercise frequency to 4 to 5 times a week, which is no small feat considering I hate exercising with a passion!
Diet-wise, I’m doing my darn best to cut down the sweets – as a sugar addict and emotional eater, this takes considerable willpower and self-control. I ate 8 squares of coconut white chocolate and a bowl of ice cream today (really couldn’t help it), but I did not eat any cookies at all, which is unheard of for me. I could give up sweets all at once; however, every time I’ve done it I’ve always relapsed. This time I’m going to go at it gradually.
Last week I got rid of the candy and the occasional soda. This week, starting on Monday, I’m going to attempt to limit myself to 4 squares of chocolate and 2 cookies a day. I am also going to do the following:
- eat 5-6 meals a day, including breakfast, which I will try never to skip again
- add protein to every meal
- eat at least one fruit and two vegetables a day
- drink 6-8 glasses of water a day
It may seem like a lot, but I’m practically there with the water and the vegetables already. My mom’s been cooking for me at home, so I really have no excuse not to eat properly.
